I remember having the thought that Lauren’s baptism dress should be made from my wedding dress. It was a perfect idea. I didn’t want it anymore, couldn’t be bothered actually selling it haha! Sure I loved it, but I wouldn’t wear it again so what would make it special enough to keep? Having another amazing memory of it and more so having Lauren involved in that memory would make it completely and utterly perfect. That was one of very few genius ideas I have ever had.

So why are these occasions and memories important to me? Because I’m practical. The feelings attached to that practicality are hidden so far down in the depths of my brain right now, but it’s there. I want to remember everything.

Mostly I want Lauren  to remember everything. She LOVES pictures. She has a wicked memory and loves so many people. I want her to have memories of them. I want her to know she is loved so much by so many people. I want her to see people smiling because they are in her company, because they got to be near her, because they love her. I want her to see it over and over again.

I want her to have as many special occasions as possible. That doesn’t mean she needs a baptism or something as awesome as that was every month. Daily outings with people she loves and that love her are special. I want to document it. I want her life to be full even if she is stuck in a hospital room looking through pictures only. She will feel what she felt, see in her mind what she saw, and be as happy as she was on that day. I wanted to share some pictures here of her baptism and hopefully you’ll feel what she felt, even just a little bit. We had the perfect day as a family. It wasn’t actually perfect, she wouldn’t eat, we were rushed and she pulled half a head of hair out just in time for the pictures! haha!! But we did feel some pretty amazing feelings of love and gratitude and faith and hope and strength, and a whole lot more love from the people that came. Thank you so much if you were there and for cards, gifts etc. She is one very lucky little girl. I’m so thankful we got to capture lots of it on camera for her, and for us. Credit to Helen Rose for the pictures. Huge Dress credit to the extremely talented Deborah Singh-Bhatti! An angel!!

That dress is no longer a dress I want rid of. I will keep it forever and ever xxxx