I don’t know how parents with two or more kids do it. There aren’t enough hands! But two kids when one has special needs/disabilities is hard. I know- I chose it. It’s my fault right!

In the holidays I found it hard just generally with Lauren but I could always just take her to cliffe castle or for a walk and get out a little bit.

Today when I had to say to her ‘Lauren, mummy and Lauren aren’t going out today because I can’t take you and Wyatt’. She burst in to tears. And then so did I. I feel like a total failure. I don’t regret Wyatt but I wish I’d have known how hard it would be on Lauren and perhaps hired a nanny first before having him. It’s difficult in the holidays most because home is boring. She doesn’t get invited places for anything really. We’re lucky that she gets one day a week with her PA to do stuff and we had a friend visit yesterday with her gorgeous girl. But like a typical kid, there aren’t sleep over invites and never have been. Not many birthday invites if any. It’s a different world and there are few and very far between people who see that, even if not understanding it, that know it’ll be hard but want to help in some way.

Holidays suck around here unless Jonnie is off work. I’m pretty sure until Wyatt is older and capable of walking a lot they will continue to suck.

The realities for families with disabilities in are that they are for the majority of the time on their own, because it’s hard to help. Imagine what it’s like for them (us). It’s lonely and it doesn’t ever stop being. Our cross to bare. But it definitely helps you whittle down the friendship circle to ones we know love us enough to get stuck in.

I have gorgeous kids, and we are happy mostly. Making the most of what we’ve got.

Just maybe take a look around and help someone. That would make us smile- knowing Lauren continues to inspire others x